Wow, what a month. Between the holidays, family, filling orders from exhibits and phone, and working like crazy on getting the site ready for shopping online we are finally done. It's amazing how things always take longer then planned. If you can help spread the word that we are finally up and running I would so appreciate it.
Im glad that I will be able to focus on other areas now. A couple being this blog and the newsletter.
The last month we have had the exhibit up on the weekends at the Rockin R Ranch in Mesa, Arizona. The response has been amazing. In doing the exhibits, I have had a chance to share stories from the shoots. It reminded me that I really need to get these stories down to share with others. We are going to make a book of them with the art work. I thought what better place to start sharing those stories then right here with you on the blog. It will be a nice place to put my thoughts down.
I thought that the best print to start with is "I Am" being that it is one of the most popular shots in the collection. To tell you the truth I am not surprised. It was one of the hand full of shots that popped into my head when I'd turn off the lights to go to sleep. I know that all of these shots were inspired, but the shots that turned out exactly how they looked in my minds eye. I know where a gift from God, and were suppose to be created, exactly the way they turned out, for a reason.
I knew that I wanted to do a shot that had to do with babies that were left in garbages to die. I had done a report in 5th grade on "Kids that have Kids" The stories I ran across about young girls that "got rid of the evidence" and would put babies in garbages stuck with me for years. I knew I wanted to do something to help stop it. A girl friend told me about Arizona Safe Baby Haven, around the same time I was putting things together for Captured Miracles. I just knew I needed to do a print for the cause. What I did not expect was the symbolizm and other situations that the print represents. Most people coming through the exhibit choose it as their favorite and when I ask why the answers I am given warm my heart. A reason that I hear quite often is, "it is as if we each are that baby and Christ is saving us from what ever garbage we got ourselves into or someone put us in." What a great visual representation of the attonement.
An amazing faith building experience with this shot was how I found the little
baby. Three days before the shoot I was laying in bed and realized that
I didn't have a new born yet. I did not know anyone that had a baby
only a couple days old. I said a little prayer in my heart asking God
to help me find a new born. The next morning I had to go to Curcuit City to
get a new external hard drive for the shoot. During a conversation with
the man helping me, it came up that I was a photographer. He then said,
"We just had a baby and I would love to get shots of her." Come to find
out they had a little girl that was just a couple of days old. I shared
with him the idea of the shoot and asked him if he and his wife would
let me use their baby in this "delicate situation" shoot, that would be
used to help babies and children.
That is how I found the sweet little new born.
When shooting the shot. I swear we took around 75 shots of the baby.
The whole time she had her eyes closed. We were outside in a partical
shaded area. Just as I was finishing up my last shots on the card, the sun came out
from behind the clouds throwing a warm glow on the baby and Christ's
hands and she opened her eyes and looked straight into Christ's eyes.
It was amazing to see it happen. There was a connection between the two
that I remember and see in her eyes every time I look at that baby's gaze.
Not long after I finished the peice "I Am", I was contacted by a women who had found me through a listing I had placed on craigs list to find models for the shoot.
this was her email to me:
"Dear Helen,
Not sure exactly how to go about this but.It seems like it may be right up your alley with the different children's organizations that you are working with so I thought I would throw it out there & see what you thought. I wrote this down in the middle of the night about a week ago after watching a documentary that upset me. It was about the war in the Congo and the horrible things that were happening to the women there. but it was the children born of rape that upset me the most. Children who started out life unwanted with this horrible stigma attached to them. After showing what I had written to my 11 year old son,we decided that these words applied to children right here at home and accross the world..."
I was so touched by it, I knew right were I could use it. Infact, amazingly I had already titled my print "I Am" and when I got the poem, I was shocked that they had the same title and at how well they fit together. It amazes me how God leads our lives and directs us to others that need to be in our lives.
I AM
I AM NOT THE EXPERIENCE NOR ACTIONS OF MY PARENTS
IT MATTERS NOT HOW I BECAME
BUT THAT I AM
I AM COURAGE
I AM COMPASSION
I AM HOPE
I AM STRONG........I AM HERE
YOU CANNOT DEFINE ME AS I CHOOSE WHO I BECOME
I AM THE FUTURE
COPYRIGHT CRISTINA RANKIN 2008
xoxo helen
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